The urge to backup and backup and self-document and archive and archive. Print things out and keep them w me until I DIE!

Every now and then I get scared SpaceHey is gonna shut down one day! Also the fact I have to use a vpn PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!! Because whenever I use a vpn everything I use is 10x slower bc i use a shitty free vpn!!!!i dont remember if malwarebytes offers free vpn uugh but this is so fucking ridiculous 

I want a cute frutiger aero kawaii freaking neocities ughhhh but idk how to makkkkkkkeeeeeeee iiiiiittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt and i want to log and log and log...everything!! like document about my art process! clip all the manga screenshots <- this might actually be very easy...I just have to start using tumblr to post all my screenshots 

and i want to watch more movies! do album reviews! LOG AND LOG AND LOG!!! set fun plans...and just do cute stuff on my laptop :( write more in general and feel more whole..but its so hard!! Maybe I should start setting some prompts and try writing a bit every now and then?? AAGH! I feel too spontaneous and i like it but i also hate it! I always get good ideas for what to write about when im showering....and then I leave the shower and all the ideas fade away!! AAgh!! whatatat thhe hell!!!! at the very least......i should start backing things up to my notion just so i have a collective directory of everything....mmmmaaannnnnnn!!!!!!!