06/03/26

the anniversary for something crappy came up, and it’s getting to me more than i thought it would. i’m upset that someone that claimed they cared for me would leave me alone in a dangerous place while inebriated, i’m upset that i accepted a drink from a stranger while in that state and it ended up being putting me in more danger, and i’m upset that i made a fool of myself thanks to what was in that drink. 

should i be over that by now? should i not be? the same event that brought the man who spiked me into town is going on again another year, and all sorts of things are running through my head. guilt, anger, confusion. i’m not even with that person anymore, and he’s moved on. lord knows what he says about me, because i know how he spoke about his ex before me. i wonder if he’s taking her to the same places, telling her the same things about his ex that he did with me. i hope he doesn’t leave her there alone. i hope he learned that much.