Journal Entry #10: Yap session

I'm not sure what to write about I just feel like talking about anything, but I don't really have friends for that so I'm doing it here. 

I already wrote in my actual journal, which was depressing. Not writing in it but seeing my old entries when life was worse. I think my new job is making me feel more lonely than usual. The crew I work with is actually a team and they all enjoy their work. There's rarely negative energy between coworkers. Because of that, I wish I had friends, I think. Since I don't really have any and I don't go out, my fast-food job is the only social interaction I really get outside of family. The team being all friendly with each other and knowing about each other really makes me feel like I have no life. Now I feel connected to these 37-year-olds I work with as if they were my parents. But it's whatever, I suppose I'll find friends eventually. I've been saying that since the 6th grade. 

I like my new job, though. I make good money; I get out my house more. I miss music. I don't listen to anything as much as I did now that I'm back home. I work too long then I just want to sleep or watch tv. I miss Taking Back Sunday and Elliot Smith. 

I miss a lot of things right now but I'm not sure what any of those things are. It's like how people say "I miss my future kid..." or some shit like that. I miss not feeling like this. 

I should've tried harder.