May is here!

Its Saturday night, I am sitting on my chair and stressed cause I got two tests tomorrow but its self reflecting time so here I am, writing when I have already got loads on my shoulders!

Its May already and summer begins here!!

The last month was me adapting my new 17 year old life and I am proud to say this that I have adapted to it faster than usual. I am really being myself, laughing at everything, I usually felt very conscious about my smile lines but then I realized that I am meant for it. I love laughing till my stomach hurts and this week, I haven't had a boring school day. I always felt happy even after leaving school and it felt like a new day every evening, maybe because I have been being myself recently, not hiding under the covers and actually being proud of things that interest me instead of joining the clout and gosh, I FEEELLL GOOOOODDD!!!

I am improving in volleyball too, my reflex has been faster and I don't feel exhausted even after playing it for 2 hours or so and its not only me, my friends have been saying the same thing except I can't tap serve, I accidently dunk it down (I used to play basketball) but whatever! I am enjoying and I am not embarrassed anymore about anything, and I am making new friends now? THAT IS CRAZYYYY.

The only thing left for me to advance is my studies, I have to start working hard so I can be the person I always wanted to be this summer.

Maybe 26' summer is the one for me!!

I started posting some in my main account which I rarely stayed active on and I think people really don't care about other and they are just like me saying "eh wow, her post is cool" and just likes it and forgets it for the rest of their life and I love it that I don't have to make an impression of me for a specific person since everyone has different views of everyone.

I guess I am going to pull up an all nighter today since I always wanted to be busy then I got to do the hard work too. 

I just hope that when I write next time, I will write it with a smile on my face.

Plus I had told myself that if the crush thing doesn't work out till the end of April then I give up, I don't want to ruin my break over some guy and yeah, I practically gave up and its alright since I love my life right now!!