The most beautiful moments in life

My chest hurts because of the nostalgia 

I will never have my childhood back and I’m just two weeks I will be 20

A band I started listening to when I was 12 

They grew up and so did I

Growing up is so bittersweet

More bitter than sweet in theory but in practice its the best 

I can do whatever I want to now

But I’ll always miss the part of being 15 where I’d listen to bts on the bus ride to school, get excited when they posted a selfie, beg my mom to watch music videos with me

I know I have a bright future ahead but nostalgia has hit me like a brick this last week

Remembering how much I loved bangtan and how I couldn’t listen to we are bulletproof the eternal without crying

And how I had a billion ideas for bts tattoos I would definitely get when I turned 18

And I never did get them

So what does that mean? 

I stopped listening to them as much

Their music is only nostalgic to me now because I haven’t listened to them in a while

Why did I leave something I loved behind so much? 

I grew up 

And yet I still cry 

And I still love them

And I will always love them

It’s so hard to put into words how I feel towards nostalgia, I’ve both always lived for it and will continue to stay alive for it

At the end of the day I love feeling

Even if it hurts me