A rocky start to the new year 16/01/2022

5-6/01/2022 - Literally hours before it happened, my dad and I were having a laugh... Jump to 11, nearly 12 at night and my mum wakes me up saying that Dad's had a heart attack. We kept an eye out for the paramedic, I went into my parents room and my dad was shaking and his hands were cold, he told me to look after Mum for him :( When the paramedic arrived, he did all the things and told us that his heart was okay, and dismissed it as indigestion, which I didn't agree with but I didn't want to say anything because he's the doctor here, but I don't think I've ever heard of indigestion making you shake and go cold! 

Jump to 7:00 and Dad rings up the paramedics again, this time two ladies with an ambulance, and then they take him away to Hinchinbrook Hospital with sirens blaring at around 08:00. I email my teacher about what's happened and that I might be late. Leave for school at 08:50 and ball my eyes out in the office. Basically, I'm shaken for that whole day. 

When the school day ends, I wait outside for my friends so we can walk together, and I look at my phone, and see a horrifying message from my dad saying that he has had a heart attack... I sped walked home and called my grandma on the way, and she knows too. 

7-8/01/2022 - Stressful, anxious, god awful waiting. Dad called us a few times and I've never heard him sound so tired, he sounded like he was losing the battle... He was supposed to come home on the 8th, but that didn't happen because he felt too unwell. When he rang us, he told us that the heart attack was spontaneous, that nothing had lead up to cause it. The doctors said that it was due to a tear in an artery, so he would be sent home with some meds and it would just heal up on its own. Also, at some point, some kid yelled emo at someone that wasn't me! That was strange, I couldn't see who they were yelling at but they weren't yelling at me.

9/01/2022 - Dad comes home and our family is reunited at last. I don't think our family has been this close, ever. My dad's brother, Joe, drove him home and he had dinner round ours. My mum and I pretty much info dumped on him about Hong Kong and how shit my school is. My dad was quiet and when my uncle left, he just went to bed.

10-12/01/2022 - I had three mock exams over these three days, RE, Biology (which I think I did shit on, tbh I think I'm just giving up on bio and focus on the other two subjects that I actually care about) and Geography. Also, never had the teachers been so concerned about me, ever, apart from Miss Kelly and Mrs Hari (aka Miss Fogarty) who are my RE teachers, those two have always been caring. Teachers had never come up to me just to ask if I'm okay, its strange. Maybe I should've let the school know sooner that I've struggled with my emotions and things around me. I always escape to "Wonderland" to cope, that's where I feel at home, the little space in my head that reflects what's going on around me, but I can conquer it, much like in Alice: Madness Returns (I've only watched SuperHorrorBro's gameplay of it). 

13-15/01/2022 - Nothing really happened these past few days, just been feeling extremely tired. But my dad is more himself now, he looks better, but he won't be able to drive for a month, and idk how we're gonna cope financially, because he's the breadwinner in our house... Also found out one of the students in my RE class (her name is Abby) was getting called an emo and Emily said "stop trying to take over Kat's turf!" XD Also the class talked about sexuality and gender (yes our RE class is really queer, only Jake and our teacher are cishet, and there's only eight students in our class), and when Miss Kelly asked what I was, I told her I was asexual, and the whole class was literally like "Oh that makes sense" or "Aww that's cute!" and >_< I literally curled up in my seat when I told them and when they reacted XD

16/01/2022 - I had such a strange dream, I was with my parents in the livingroom and I thought we was gonna watch Silent Hill, but instead it was this zombie apocalypse film. It started off with these pills, similar to the capsule ones I take for my hayfever, but they had a small hole in it, and inside the pills were these small, black beetle-like bugs, and LOTS of them. Then there was a party, and people were taking these pills because they mistook them for some drugs, and people didn't realise that some of the pills had bugs crawling out of them because they were too busy partying. Some people turned into zombies and some were getting bitten by the bugs, and the people were screaming whilst some "arousing" music was playing in the background. There was a scene where there were these four dancing ladies, either half naked or fully naked O_o and they got put into these hood hair dryers (like what you get at a salon) but they were upside down and had glass around them, the ladies were still dancing and then this "evil" lady came and pushed buttons that were behind them and basically kind of blended the four ladies up, but then the four of them got up and were zombified and then carried on dancing, and some of them were missing parts on their legs or breasts, like okay... and then it cut back to the pills and then I woke up. It seemed like it would've been a good movie (all bar the naked people) but I woke up and at the start of the dream, I thought we were gonna watch Silent Hill XD

My dad seems to be doing a lot better now, he's doing okay now <3 Pray that he keeps getting better