come on and just cry me a river

I've been down so many times that I find comfort in the ground. I feel like no matter what I do it's never good enough. I feel like no matter how many times I try, how many times I pray, I cry, I wish, I sacrifice it's all for nothing. im overwhelmed. im exhausted. my birthday is in 4 days and I just keep taking hit after hit after hit. im trying to remain positive but the emotional blows are starting to take over the positive attitude im trying to maintain. all I got right now is hope and faith the size of a mustard seed. I've burn candles gave offerings to the crossroads and water. im confessed and cry to the moon. im running outta options but I will not run out of faith. I trust that in divine timing everything will work out for my greater good. it has to. its really all I got left