entry #5 march13th2026

Hello everyone! I'm sorry I haven't been around the past few days. I had a very rough week, not because anything especially bad or different happened, sometimes I simply have a handful of days that knocks me on my ass and i struggle to get up. The good news is this usually lasts multiple weeks, sometimes up to months. This time I was only in a slump for four days!

So what have I been doing while I was away and miserable? I spent some time with my bio dad, step mom, and my sister for the weekend which was why I originally didn't write my daily blog. We watched some live theater with my step mom on Friday and then on Saturday i spent the night at my dad's place to have movie night with his new girlfriend! 

I think what kicked off my bad mood was finding out my step mom is back in the mental health facility. I've had many people in the past have to visit, including her in the past, and it isn't her fault but I'm starting to feel really heavy having all the support in my life be in a state that's so much worse than mine. It feels bad sharing my issues with people who are struggling so much, even if I know in and of myself that my feelings are valid and my struggles are not less than because I know people that are going through worse. It's just that EVERYONE is going through worse.

Anyway, I went to the mall a few days ago and that was alright, but I really got back on track today when I went to my local Co-op and bought spinach even though the building gives me panic attacks. I'm still unpacking and reorganizing my room and handing out my resume and I hope to get all that done by mid next week. 

Also, Ren is in Mexico this week but I'm hoping when they come back on Saturday (after I get my blood taken) we can go watch the Demon Slayer movie together!