Am i becoming a male manipulator?

This started as a joke between me and my partner, but now i'm genuinely thinking about it.

So idk how to even really categorize this, ig performative is the wrong word and "male manipulator" is the correct term??? I have the classic music taste, think of radiohead and deftones (examples), which are both bands that i listen to. Now the final nail in the coffin, i listen to them on cd, on a portable cd player. That's actually how me and my partner spent our first sleep over, we listened to razorblade romance on cd, and fell asleep that way. Why the hell you'd wanna stay after that is something i can't answer, that's something only kitkat(partner) knows. I don't play guitar or sing (thank god, can you imagine? actually don't even, that's terrible) so atleast i got that going for me. Also i will never EVER touch valorant, i don't have the voice for it and also even i gotta draw the line somewhere. And that's where i draw it. I draw the line at playing valorant.

I haul around an old 2000s camcorder just to get retro pictures, and also i love the hand feel of old cameras, or just cameras in general, it's so much more ergonomic than a phone also charm points! Rn i'm away from home and besides clothes and meds the only stuff i brought with me was the aforementioned camcorder and a bong, so i can smoke without having to deal with rolling joints, which i still sorta struggle with, because i don't have all the fancy equipment for it, so i genuinely just have to try my fucking best with the shakiest hands. I really need a steamdeck, the switch is not a handheld and my 3ds doesn't have the same game variety that my pc does.... i'm actually without games rn, although i've been playing battle cats obsessively on my downtime, enrichment that makes me wanna gamble.

I should draw, but i definitely rely on digital a lot, mistakes are easier to fix so it's not as stressful. That's why i almost quit drawing all together because i hated traditional, even though that's literally every artist's start. But i just hated everything i create, except when i finally got comfortable with my drawing tablet, i enjoy it a lot more, and the point of making art isn't really to suffer and hate every second of it last time i checked. 

Ok sidetracked much? Conclusion, i don't really try to seem interesting or quirky with my hobbies, i find them kinda embarrassing tbh, but i like what i like. Also i'm too autistic (like genuinely diagnosed) to manipulate anyone for a long period of time. I like fucking with people by sometimes lying to them about harmless stuff. Recently got a friend to watch madoka magica as well, didn't tell her anything about it (the ones who know can probably guess how this interaction went, but i don't wanna spoil peak fiction so let's just leave it at that) But in the end i can't keep up a bit for that long, also i'm scared of deception so i try not to do it myself.

Being called a male manipulator is just an inside joke, but everyone can cast their own judgement ig :P

Had to write something light, being at my mom's house makes me sad.