Gaming withdrawal

Computer gone, my life has lost 90% of it's entertainment value.

I tried to go smoke half an hour ago, saw a rabbit and got paranoid so i went home instead. Now i just wanna play something (specifically on my pc that isn't present) NO I DON'T WANNA PLAY ON CONSOLE >:(

I need to start cleaning before i leave my house for a week to stay at my mom's, i have until the saturday.

I could play splatoon..... been a while 

Shopping list for tomorrow 

- Bong

- Screws

- idfk a will to live

- Anything edible 

- Something fun, anything at this point 

There's been a lava lamp i've been eyeing, i should go look at that, it would be my third one, and they're all orange too (variety is needed)

Idk what clothes to pack, probably little bit of everything, not like i gotta be prepared, i'm just gonna rot in the house all day until someone wants an audience from me. And i gotta do that for a week....

Unless i go bother my associates (old highschool friends) actually yeah, i'm probably gonna be half of that week at my bro's house helping him clean, and smoking along the way. I gotta bring him stuff as well, bunch of my old clothes and piercing stuff + maybe hairdye idk what color he wants 

Then my other friend has her birthday right at the start of next week, so atleast a day is gonna be spent there. Gonna be a very chill and substance free day, but that's fine. We're probably gonna be catching up a lot, we don't talk as much as we should, idk how much i should talk about my dating life atm, not that she's that homophobic just traditional and my weird set up wouldn't really make sense and i can't really explain it either tbh (because genuinely how is a chronically offline christian supposed to understand what "t4t genderfluid situationship" means. Also me and kitkat aren't aiming for marriage atm, like how "you're supposed to" in my friend's opinion.) We're probably just gonna talk about the fandoms we both like, so it's a good time regardless :3

Honestly the less time i spend at home the better, i don't wanna get into a fight again. Makes me feel bad. Also it makes me feel like a kid, in the worst way, feeling trapped. I don't know how to talk to my mom, she doesn't understand my way of looking at stuff, and then we both get upset because the other doesn't understand. This isn't even about politics, we're both registered in the same party, it's more like how different people see a glass of water. She sees it's half full, i will have to get a measuring tape to confirm if it's half full or half empty, i'll forget what i was looking for and space out. 

Headphones are gonna carry me through this one, i should probably get an audio book trial or something, i'm running out of podcasts.

Life is still a mess, we ball.