Ending?

This will be my final plea, I wont bother anyone about my problems.

I feel more and more empty each day, I really hate my school

I didn't know I was actually being made fun of by my class, I thought I had fun but they were making fun of me

I only noticed it after the school year ended, then I was super depressed for 2 months and was hospitalized because of my skin problem, I spend my days being in my bed doing nothing, eat nothing, watch videos on my tablet, sleep, get called lazy and get berated, repeat. The new school year didn't help, classmates were only nice out of necessity to use me, if I don't give them something they ignore, if I ask then they give nothing. I feel more and more empty, being cheerful and weird were the only traits that can save me but everyone still hated me being that way. If I am happy or mad it doesn't matter, people still make fun of me. 

Thats why before the 1st day of school, I promised myself to die after graduation, I have nothing else left to do in life, it will all be the same. Be made fun of, be ignored, have fake friends who don't care about you and only reach out to you when you already leave. 

Everyone is tiring, they teach about being kind to everyone but they aren't even kind. 

I intentionally became distant to my friends in class to make them hate me, I don't want them to miss me when I die, I have no savior, no one will help me, no one will even if they swear they do. 

One mistake I did while living is living for this long, I wish I actually went through killing myself when I turned 15. This life is my mistake, I'm sorry for being born a failure mama, papa. 

Vincent Fennell reference fr, I gotta go to the roof