Becoming a Last Name

I don't know what it is, but I've just been thinking about the song Becoming the Lastnames by Will Wood a lot lately. My desire to be like the best aspects of my parents but also feeling like their worst parts have soaked so deep into who I am that I don't know what things would be like without it. I want to be good. I just want to grow old with my favourite person. They don't want kids, but I can't help but imagine us with a daughter. She could be Reagan like my parents would've named me if I were a girl. Maybe this is just what it's like when you actually have to start living life, bittersweet dreams of a sepia tone existence, green grass, white picket fences, and blue skies. I don't know if I can be the person I really want to be for my partner or for my parents, but I'll be damned if I don't at least try.