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everything has been going wrong for so long I am at my wits end and I keep trying to gaslight my brain into being happy but I am running on caffeine, benadryl, and 5 hours of sleep and it is NOT working for me. I just need to set some time aside for meditation and myself but I'm so busy with school and my job I'm not sure I can take it.
also my hair is like BRIGHTTT green. NOT A BAD THING I adore the color!!! but my split ends are painfully obvious in the sunlight, and as much as I like the color I prefer to blend in most of the time because I'm really a quiet person when I can help it. I'm getting some black dye to mix in with my leftover phantom green, and I'm gonna still have green hair I'm just going for a darker green (which I thought the dye would be initially).
but yeah... summary for this blog: mental health sliding downhill at alarming rate, seriously I am on the verge of snapping, also dying hair. okay. nice. I need to break something with my hands
edit: I was having a rough time for several days there. Right now it's been a nice few days, I dyed my hair darker green, I drank tea, I went to work, I listened to music, I calmed myself down. I also have a crush now which is insane because it's been 4 years since I had one and I honestly thought I couldn't like anyone anymore. but I'm feeling better at the moment and I hope you all are too!
edit again: it's been a few months since I first posted this. I think I'd like to update this over time. I think all in all, deep down I'm really improving in life, but of course I've still got stuff to work through. One of them in particular being my grades, and some social situations. I don't have a crush on that guy anymore. I honestly wonder if I'll ever be in a relationship, in high school at least. People have liked me before, but I've never been able to reciprocate feelings which really sucks. I'll figure that out later, when the rest of my life is in place.
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