My problems with friendships

Just blogging here, I will be talking about emotional/social problems, if you want to see philosophical blogs i have in my profile.

I've been dealing with a problem that maybe everyone have today, it's self-love, I've noticed that I'm already looking for someone to spend time with, normally guys just think in this way with girls, but i really feel the necessity to spend time with friends, but there's a thing that really bothers me and it's I'm doing more effort to ask someone out than they could do.

Like, why everytime you ask me out i go, but when i ask you out you always have an excuse to reject the idea? It seems like i am easy to reject.

I already had heard the phrase "You need to be your best friend", and i do agree with that, but some people just don't need to think this way, they simply send one message and it's all solved, the lonely is solved. Maybe you are reading this and thinking "this guy is lonely as fuck", no, i'm not, but there's people that i really care so much about them and i simply don't see a single response.

Sometimes it really seems like a jester dancing for the king, just begging for attention. I'm trying not to be a selfish guy but i'm willing to stop being this dumb person, because some people just reject you on purpose.

well, it's just me talking about a problem, but i know how to solve it. I needed to write about it. Adios, God loves you