capitalism sux

so i lost my job due to covid about four days ago now. this is the longest i have been without a job in almost four years. in some way i feel at peace knowing that i dont have to worry about having to work and be presentable 24/7 but at the same time while im not working i feel so,,, useless?? i feel like i am not doing my part as a 19 year old not having a job. i also hate that things cost so much, its kind of ridiculous. i miss working