xii. birthday

my birthday was more or less 20 days ago, i had the most attendees out of all my birthday parties by a long shot, it truly was an amazing experience

who would have imagined just how much changes in your life by simply attempting to be out there, to be someone, to find reason and love within yourself

if you were to look, it's likely you'll hear my heartbeat has been replaced by various melodies birth from whatever goes on in my mind

my birthday party was the largest joy i've felt in a while, the main event and focus of it being my band's first live concert; and it could not have gone better

we've been preparing to go live for 6 month prior to our first performance and im really excited to get this ball rolling and making ourselves known

i shed tears during and afterward the party. i think everyone should get to experience crying from joy

i feel grateful to have shed tears from the whole spectrum of causes, i really do think emotion and feeling is the core of being human and to have experienced all emotion is to ground yourself forever as one who has truly lived their life