dopamine seeking...(tw)

I hate dopamine seeking. With a passion. Everything is just a waiting game until i can get my next boost of dopamine. It feels awful. I mean sure, in the moment, the doomscrolling, the attention seeking, the binges, the drugs, the cutting feels amazing...but afterward im just left aching, tired, and angry. I dont know what to do. Ive tried damn near everything under the moon to keep from dopamine seeking. Ive chewed gum, ive practiced impulse control, ive tried meditation, even fucking clicker training!...nothing works well enough. Does anyone have any thoughts / ideas??  and yes, i know ill probably get the obligatory 'stop cutting / using / binging its really bad for you :(' in the nicest way, i know you mean well dear reader, but i know, i know. Ive heard it enough. The main reason i am continuing these habits is because i am currently in a unstable living space, and i use those methods to cope. Ive already Promised myself i will begin healing once i get out of here and get on my own feet. 

Thank you for any advice / comments, dear reader ♡