2021: a yr of change, isolation, loneliness, tragedy, consequences, discoveries, and growth
wow!! it's been over half a yr since my last blog post. i also just realized that it's gonna b a yr since joining spacehey, starting february 10th. but anyway, let's get 2 the point of this blog post.
as u can already tell by the title, 2021 has been a yr of nothing but struggles. it wasn't as bad as 2020, but it still was a rough yr @ least 4 me. b4 and after i joined spacehey, i was facing a lot of struggles not only in my internet life, but in my personal life as well.
in my personal life, my parents were on the verge of getting divorced after 16 yrs, and still r, therefore resulting in my dad abandoning me, leaving me w my mother 2 b there 4 me and vice versa, my grandparents' 2 dogs and my own dog passed away just months apart from 1 another (1 in february, another 1 in may, and the final 1 in november), i was still doing virtual learning 4 the remainder of the school yr and didn't talk 2 or run in2 any of my peers and vice versa, leaving me feeling v isol8ed, as i did not have contact w them, and when i did return 2 school after over a yr and a half of virtual learning, no1 talked 2 me or ask how i was doing after all the isolation and loneliness of virtual learning, which left me feeling even more isol8ed and alone.
in my internet life, b4 i joined spacehey, i was still on instagram, snapchat, and twitter, and i didn't rlly talk 2 any1 on those platforms. none of my peers from school direct messaged me or reached out 2 me. around that time, although i never photoshopped my pictures, i was also excessively using face filters on snapchat and posting them on my instagram. i didn't think 2 much abt it until my mom called me out on it, and once she did, i stopped using the filters and comparing myself 2 others. but it wasn't always like that. during my time on instagram, i was following a bunch of nostalgia fan pages, and that seemed 2 distract me from all the instagram fakeness, @ least a lil' bit. but then, early on in the yr, i discovered spacehey. i was a bit nervous joining it bc i didn't think any1 would talk 2 me or acknowledge me, but then i tried it after a month, and as time went on, it not only had a huge impact on my life and well-being, but it also made me realize that the "influencer" drama is useless and disappointing and that the "instagram influencer" lifestyle is completely fake, photoshopped, and filtered. and bc of my time on spacehey, i made the ultim8 decision 2 delete all my social media, and i honestly couldn't b much happier.
overall, while 2021 wasn't as bad as 2020, it was still a yr of highs and lows. now that 2022 is here, hopefully i can c sum positive changes in life, remove all the toxic and negative stuff from my life as much as possible, make new friends, meet new ppl, and overall just grow and become a better person. i also wanna b more active on spacehey and contribute more, like make new layouts, blog posts, forums, all that good stuff.
let's pray that 2022 is much better than 2020-2021. i hope y'all r having an amazing new yr so far.
ilusm and i will keep y'all posted as always!! happy new yr 2022!!