poise and rationality

weiiird things happening.

con: car issues, again. pros: but i made a friend online. con: but now someone i don't... know anything about other than things ive Heard is staying here while i also am. i feel bad about it. her situation is so much worse than mine so i almost feel like my issues are lesser than hers..? and that i kind of don't deserve the room and i should be the one sleeping in the living area.

it's not a competition. i know. stupid unfounded thoughts. nobody's pain is worse than another's and such and so on. i guess. but is that really true?? i don't know.

ive been stuck in my head a lot lately so this new and drastic change (for however long. a few days was tossed around but so was 'as long as you need' which, im technically doing too so its fine..?) is really stretching and pulling me around like a scared dog on a leash.

speaking of dogs! there's also a dog in the house now. not very housebroken. but its not like im not used to that, unfortunately. i dont have to clean up after him so i guess its ok..? its just a puppy and i like dogs more than cats anyways. i dont know. i have a crazy headache and my eyes are on the verge of tears for some reason but im going to be normal over this. literally nothing i can do about it, i have to stay calm. thats all i can do. its really nothing

i dont know why im so stressed out! nothing is happening to me personally! boo. 

but im back to that weird, sinking feeling again.