I don't have much time left.

I want to shout out loud to the whole world about his beauty, I want everyone to know how wonderful he is, sweet, smart... beautiful. Every day I think of him, and every day I realize that another day has been wasted. I wake up with the thought that today I'll see you somewhere... on the street, in social networks, but every day there's nothing. Do you exist? If so, please show yourself to me, give me a chance to finally live... not just survive. I'm tired of living in an imaginary world.