sending you a greeting card (introduction post)

i have some words to say but to be frank - this is a messy introduction post. 

it's never occurred to me to give a disclaimer for my blogs considering the fact that they're very heavy topic wise, but it's never been an obligation of mine. i write solely for myself and nobody else (besides my psychologist, but that's not important). regardless i'll give one. most of my blogs are about my personal issues, whether they're about my daily life or my irrational behavior; please keep in mind that they're unfiltered and talk about suicidal ideation, self harm, etc. i like to get my emotions out, i spill my guts onto the page. if you want to read them, go ahead! otherwise i suggest you steer clear from the blogs (unless they're lyrics those r typically fine LOL). i don't discourage you from reading them as it gives you a glimpse of who i am as a person, but more often than not i'm a lot happier then i seem (40% of the time).

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anyways.. hi :9 i don't necessarily attach a name to this blog but truly feel free to come up with a name or something, it'd definitely be a lot more easier when referring to me. whenever i think about a cool little pseudonym for this blog i always think of an envelope. not sure why. i'm 17 and i'm currently a junior - no, i was not held back. i just have the misfortune of being registered late into the school system. i'm from new jersey, is that important? hell yeah baby. 

besides writing, my main focus is actually art! i've been doing digital art since i was like.. 10 and i've been doing graphic design for 4-5 years. i've recently been doing photography and i dabble in music.... sort of. i've had my toe dipped in the water for 3 years and i haven't gone any deeper. i like to sing though! it's fun!

i'm super big on music and movies... games are cool too.. i switch from genre to genre but fall out boy had dug into my skin like a parasite and sucked the soul out of everything so i've been big on fall out boy recently. i listen to anything though, so you can ask me about a band or artist and maybe i've listened to them! i've watched around 61 films and i plan to watch a lot more, i typically like any movie with jake gyllenhaal but horror and drama are my favorite genres. if it's not miserable, i don't want it! i don't play games often but i'm a sucker for indie games that you find on itch.io and puyo puyo, pretty cool. my favorite game has to be jet set radio or the world ends with you, either or. 

i don't have much to say so feel free to ask any questions.. also don't feel scared to message me or interact w/ my bulletins! i'm always open for a chat. i am a little anxious though so you won't be getting a first message from me man... and i'm often busy and forgetful so please don't take it personally if i don't get back to you! 

also this should be given but please don't be weird... i let most things slide but i'll most likely get annoyed if things start getting uncomfortable.