being the ugly kid

As a kid I had a small crush on this girl named Halima, she was the first kid to call me pretty. Most kids wouldn't say anything or straight up call me ugly and disgusting. I was the strange child and honestly looking back I was pretty "weird". But still. 

My mum and dad were the only one calling me pretty so it was hard to believe since I was their only child. Especially when a sea of kids would say the opposite to me. Halima was the pretty popular girl so at the time it really made me happy when she wrote me on a paper that I was pretty. It felt nice to hear it from someone. 

Now that I think of it, it must've been some kind of mean hypocritical joke. She probably didnt mean it at all and was just saying it to be nice or to mock me but sometimes I still have some hope her words were genuine because it was one of the comment I used to reassure myself with back then.