opportunity knocks

life is funny

so i stopped doing music (in a "serious" way) in 2016. yet here i am finding myself surrounded by people who want to record with me. i didn't ask for it, it just sort of happened.

a few weeks ago i saw a post on Instagram that Chapter 17 was looking for applicants for their street team (to promote merch, music and other stuff). i sent them a message just to see what would happened. they messaged me back today and i was accepted.

i wrote last week about how i was testing my feelings and keeping my expectations low. yet these opportunities just started happening for me. i didn't push too hard for either, they're just coming my way.

i attribute this to my recovery and a somewhat magnetic personality. people like me. and i don't say that to brag, i'm just a likeable person.

i struggle to be grateful sometimes for what i have, but when i get new things, or opportunities, it reminds me that i have so much to be grateful for already. and more will come my way.

i've also been struggling to post YouTube videos. i usually do one a week and for the past two weeks it's been Task Failed Successfully.

i need to make more time. scratch that. i have time, i just need to use it more wisely.

there's a lesson in here.

things show up for us when we're ready for them, or when we're not, and it's up to us to figure that out. nobody can assess for us if we're ready or not. we either are or we aren't, and we either know or we don't.

i don't know if i'm ready, but opportunity is knocking, and i'm not one to turn down opportunities. i'd rather try and fail than never try. someone famous said that, or something similar. i'm just regurgitating a platitude.

what's the point?

i have a lot to look forward to if i keep my eyes open and my chin up. i'm grateful for what i have, and grateful for what i don't have. i'm grateful for what has happened, what hasn't happened, what will happen, and what won't.

opportunity is knocking and i'm about to open the door.