online unfortunately

I've never made an alt account. the people who read my words don't care anyway.

my emotions have been unstable. i never feel sure of anything. im still influenced by people. im almost done with high school and the only thing im excited for is the fact that i wont be surrounded by clowns and giant ugly walls that i wish i could blow up.

i got my own room

i still feel guilt

i struggle. bruised arms are as noticeable as cut ones. i feel on edge and anything pushes me over. into water it feels like. im looking for things and i dont even know what they are. i talk so much it feels. i think i talk to a lot of people im just friendly.