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if there is a god, please just take my life now im too scared to do it myself
when i do die, please make it in a way where my body cant be found so i wont inconvenience my family even after death as we’re financially unstable
i dont care if i go to hell, because of wrong doings i deserve to go to hell, people like me have no space in heaven
it may seem selfish of me but i think its even more selfish to continue living when im just a nuisance in other peoples lives
im at the point where im practically begging for god or somebody out there to kill me
im on the bathroom floor at 11:12pm after work sobbing and shaking
im trying so hard not to take a pen knife right now
im tired
im only a 16 year old girl but i wish i could turn into a kid again
where the only problems i would give my parents is crying at night, changing diapers
i dont want them to cry because of me
i dont want fights to occur because of me
why is it always because of me
why do i always make others so unhappy
why me
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alex
hi i know we dont know eachother, but you are worth every ounce of Jesus's love. your life was created for purpose and while it may not feel like it, people care about you. i do. if you need someone to talk to, im always here and so are others so shoot me a dm if needed. if this is a more immediate situation, 988 is a number you can call for help. there is purpose in your life and resources online if you need them. i hope you feel better<3
Vajra
Welcome to the club. Not really much you can do apart from pushing on. Hang in there, Hope it gets better for you.