it's lonely out here (vent)

tw: homophobia, suicide mentions

i kept seeing so many homophobic posts and felt soo horrible, like the way they compared us to literal criminals for being queer?? i don't understand how these are the same people who read their holy book who tells them to respect and be kind to their neighbors yet only takes the "being gay is sin" as their daily life's motto.

i know many queers exists in my place, around me and outside whether it be closeted or out and proud. my own favorite "dads" are gay, my friends are queer, yet i feel lonely whenever i'm alone with my thought.

i wish i have someone to talk to, someone who'll tell me it's okay and that we'll be fine. someone to stick with me no matter what, just like how phil stayed with dan throughout their journey. yet somehow i feel better off dead, it's what they wanted anyway. right?

oh to be loved.