butterfly wants to become a caterpillar again

i was looking through old pictures, playlists, and blog posts.

i was happier during that time, i really miss those versions of me.

im so depressed

im great but at what cost im still that loser underneath

i was just

more vocal about it before

i was not scared about expressing myself at all

sometimes i wonder if butterflies preferred being caterpillars or if they wanted to revert if ever

do they dream i wonder

do they regret who they are but can't change who they are because that's already inherent in them

can they not change

can time not be reversed at all

i want to live inside a memory bubble