division meet

ok so hes competing in the division met so he isnt at school for the whole week

im a bit depressed about not seeing him

but im more depressed that im not there

its been my minigoal to get to division meet but im just not good enough in taekwondo, no matter how long, or how hard i train, whether i be consistent or not. i've never seemed to improive from grade 8 to grade 10, and i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me right now, im insanely tired to top that off from publication i wanna fuggen kms

is it wrong to be insanely jealous of what your crush has?