64 - FIXING YOURSELF

Many people seek to fix themselves, and find that nothing seems to be fixing them. But they never stop to ask, is there a you to fix? And if so, is there anything to fix about you? People many times have thoughts along the lines of "There's something wrong with me", caused through total ignorance of the nature of subjectivity and the sovereignty of objectivity.

As Carl Jung puts it, "The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are." Unfortunately, this is rather difficult in the human condition. Humans are social creatures, and thus in order to survive, a common strategy is to prioritize the collective over the individual. Although ultimately these should work in tandem, at lower levels of consciousness, it is mistaken as a dilemma.

Thus, when one tries self expression, and is staunchly rejected, it is often that one represses who they are in order to belong and thus survive in the group. This is why people with genetics which were less geared towards risk taking spread their genes more, and why belonging is such an essential need for humans that many sacrifice their individuality for it.

But the issue is, you can't change who you fundamentally are. Thus, what happens is that someone pretends that a certain aspect of themselves which they don't like doesn't exist, plunging it into the depths of the subconscious; but pretending it doesn't exist doesn't make it disappear, it just makes it uncontrollable.

It's the same issue with bottling up your emotions instead of healthily expressing yourself. One day, you will snap. The only way to solve this is to accept who you are. Of course, this is easier said than done, as you will face constant resistance; but the truth is that their judgement is false. You have a unique beauty and purpose ONLY you can live, so live accordingly.

And to tie this in with another concept is the thought of "I'm a bad person". For the same reason mentioned prior, this is false. Not only this, but it is in fact dangerous. Because once you believe you are a bad person, why bother trying to improve at all? Why not slip further and further down to the pit of hell? So keep your chin up and be proud of who you are, because...

NIHIL EST SINE RATIONE