bitchy/beachy

ok this is different from my "omg i want him" "omg i hate him" blogs

for a bit of background context, i've always loved pearls since i was a kid, but never really got to have much pearl jewelry asides from a necklace and a bracelet with low-grade pearls

ive been BEGGING my mom for pearl earrings to "complete the set"

i just went to the beach today, and of course like all beaches in the philippines, there were vendors selling jewelry. anklets, cowrie necklaces/bracelets, etcetc

but what caught my eye was a pair of pearl earrings

and of course the kuya who was selling them was very insistent on us buying 

we were the only ones who seemed interested in him

and he'd been selling for about 3 hours already

my mom said shed maybe check it properly around lunchtime since yk we were still setting up and were busy and stuff

ofc kuya agreed

approaching lunch, he kept coming to our cabana and asking mom to check

ofc mom gave in bc asides from me begging ,she said kuya was pitiful yk

old, carrying tons of stuff, walking in the blazing heat

then she haggled the price from 150P (3 dollars) to 100p (2 dollars)
YK i felt so bad

and what my mom said throughout the day to try and convince me to not ask for the earrings

"oh they buy their jewelry from shein then just resell it at a higher price"
"they dont ACTUALLY scout the pearls themselves" (kuya said he like finds the pearls himself, like he dives for it w the other jewelry-makers)
"he couldve done Godknows what with/to that jewelry."
"i dont believe those pearls are real"


well the pearls ARE real just low grade

but

i feel so bad???

i wonder how many sellers around the Philippines; hell, even the WORLD have been losing sales and stuff or like no one buys from them bc it seems fake, low class, low status, yk

the only thing that gets them sales is being pitiful yk.

thats

so

gutwrenching...?

I DONT KNOW
it doesnt feel as if ive articulated my thoughts enough in this blog post, i think i may have even used the wrong words to describe certain scenarios, but its 9:55 pm, im tired as fuck, and i dont wanna write this blog post tomorrow since i had the idea today. thanks!