I love my friends so much dude

i've been thinking alot recently bc i have a friend that is very clearly going through some mental shit rn and i have been trying to figure out how one casually says 'i love you' to a friend who you've never been overly like affectionate with or whatever, or how you can mentally normalize saying that to friends in general- but i just love all my close friends so much and i hope that that love shows through even if i don't outright say it. 

I physically couldn't say i love you for a few years after a very insane traumatizing abusive relationship, (when i was 12 lol) like to the point where i couldn't even repeat that back to my family for a long time. it took a lot of work to be comfortable saying it again and especially saying it casually and i do still feel really awkward saying it aloud but its way better than it used to be. But like come ON man i literally have like the coolest little group of friends around me and i love them so damn much, they all are so beautiful inside and out and it just baffles me man. Its also a little funny to me because like we are all single and we joke about it a lot but like deadass i don't know how they don't all have fan-clubs- which i guess its because i have known some of them for a long ass time and also because everyone else in this town is actually super lame and insane but whatever. (is that weird to say bc i dont really care if so) Uhh idrk what else to say but my friends are super awesome and lowkey blowing a kiss to all of them but no homo tho.