Why’d you do it..

I don’t understand, why would you do it? Why’d you take your life, I thought it would’ve been me first. I hope you weren’t in pain, I hope it was quick. I’m sorry I missed the call; I’m sorry I was at work when you called I thought you just were looking for a chat. I swore I would’ve called you the next morning, I’m so sorry. I’m so fucking sorry.