27/11

The school counselor wants to talk to me and I’m freaking out. I swear I never want to put myself in this position again. Yeah, I’ve had a dip, but I’d do anything to avoid it now. If I don’t want to deal with the same problems, I should stop creating them. And it’s not even like I’m problematic it’s just some absences because I don’t really like school right now its overstimulating. It’s not the same anymore. All my friends are in different places around this tiny country, and we barely hang out.
Seeing them again feels like a breath of fresh air. I get to be myself and not shrink back into who I used to be, quiet and lonely. That’s why I feel such a strong urge to go out more. I’ve been so quiet that sometimes I can’t even talk normally or speak I to my teachers as if we're friends. (yeah i usually never do that bc they are still my teachers yk)
But yeah… 2025 is almost over. The girl who used to be trapped in her room at 14 now actually wants to go out and live her life.