Whyre they like this

I genuinely don’t understand why, why can’t they understand the simple idea of not everyone thinks like them. Genuinely, my first day of break, I’m nauseous, been so ill all day almost fainted at my appointment, had a meeting in the morning, a test right after the meeting, had to take so many pain meds I genuinely couldn’t think, and yet it’s my fault for not knowing they didn’t want fucking solutions. Open your damn mouth. Don’t complain to someone who only gives solution; don’t complain to me then get mad when I can’t offer you help. I’ve told them, I am in no position to help anyone, I am battling my own shit. I gave them all the resources they needed. They made shitty decisions, waste so much money. And then ONLY WHEN THEY GET FUCKING ROBBED, do they freak out about money. But not when they spend so much more than they need to on lunch on shit that’s so unhealthy. Then get mad at me for telling them to not complain about financial issues when they themselves don’t make an effort to spend wisely. I swear to god I feel like I am going to lose my mind. To complain then only to drown yourself in what you complain about makes me want to strangle myself. I know I’m not the best, and I myself make that same mistake but atleast I’m not drowning in debt. Yeah my parents are in debt but they’re fixing that shit, because agents made the mistake not us. But we spend wisely; we make our decisions wisely. But I swear it’s almost like they complain to complain, they set themselves up for failure so they can complain. They wish death and so much worse on their mother only to then cry when she almost dies, they wish on her so often it’s almost as if they’re the ones manifesting it. They talk so much shit about her and yet can’t stay true to what they say until it gets bad. The fact they were so worried then the next day proceeded to say she’s a cunt is insane to me. I’m so done, I hope I fucking die. Maybe then I won’t be so frustrated. I seriously want to die, I’m so exhausted. I’m worn out, I feel as if I’m being strangled by everything and everyone. Genuinely, I just want to be fucking happy.