I can't do anything for the people I love. (Dal/Travis don't read pls)

Im trying

I really am

I just can't help them ENOUGH.

The two closest people in my life want to die.

One of them isn't responding to my texts.

And I couldn't sleep last night. 

I started sobbing thinking about what could've happened.

The other one is depressed again when I thought he was getting better.

I don't know what to do.

How can I help more? 

My words mean nothing if I've said the same words over and over again.

I'm so stressed.

I just want to go and cut my problems away, or drink Molta until my head hurts, or just die.

I just want everything to be fine.

I just want them to love each other.

I don't care about my feeble life

I need them happy together.

I know they have problems, and in my heart I want to help them.

But I'm also tired.

I just need a break.

I'm probably not going to talk to them. Why?

Because this is THEIR mess and it's about love so THEY will figure it out.

And when they do, and they love each other, I'll be fine.

Travis asked me earlier this week if it was okay if him and Dal dated.

I said it was completely fine.

I don't romantically love anyone of them, I'm just jealous.

I want love.