I'm Alive

Welp, it's been a while since my last blog. I've been busy to say the least, college has been crazy this time around, the adult life is hitting hard, haha. 

I came home a few days early to start my Thanksgiving break, so I'm writing this at 11:30 pm in my room as I blast metal music. The current song playing is Never Ordinary by Three Days Grace. They're one of my favorite bands, which I got to see over the summer. Never Ordinary is one of their new songs from their new album Alienation, which is really good.

Anyway, this semester in college has been busier than past semesters. I'm working really hard in all my classes, and right now I'm passing them all. Proud of myself with my current grades, especially in my two math classes, I was sure I was gonna do really bad in. Aiming to finish the semester strong to get my GPA up!

Clubs have also been super busy. I'm now the President of the Crochet and Knitting club on campus, and that has been doing super well! We even won an award for the golf cart parade, which was homecoming week. Now we have $100 in funds that never existed LOL. 

The drama club also did a musical this semester, Legally Blonde: The Musical. It was super fun to do, and I got to be part of the ensemble. Being on stage is such a great experience, and I now know a great bunch of people who made this club feel like a family. Especially after drama happened within another club.

Drama? Between two clubs? Gee, I wonder which club that was in- Dance. It was the dance club. They not only caused a bunch of problems and stress for me, but also for the drama club as well. My final straw has broken with the dance club, and I officially quit. It's sad cause I really love dance as a whole, but for my sanity, fuck that club. Some people I know personally have been telling me that they told me so (if you're one of them, shut). But just because I'm done with that club doesn't mean I'm done with dance. Imma try to find a studio around home I can join, and I plan on choreographing 2 dances for myself that have been on my mind for a while. 

Friendships have been decent. I mean, steady with the friends I have, but there's this one girl. I don't know how to write it down, but let's just say I sense a bit of distancing between us. I don't want that to come around, but since she got a boyfriend, it's been hard to see each other. She turned 21 and started drinking more, had a pregnancy scare, and is now engaged to this guy she's been dating for a month. She wants me as a bridesmaid, but with my schooling, my own 21st birthday, conventions, concerts, etc., there's no way I can do that. Love her, but sorry, I can't save an additional $5,000 on top of my schooling for your wedding, especially if I have to pay for my own, well, everything. 

I made some new friends too, and currently haft talking to a guy myself. He's very nice and is a great friend, we talk a lot about schooling and life, not much to say tho haha.

I go back to work tomorrow too, 6 hr shift. I hate it, but hey, I NEED that money LMAO. I also feel like this is gonna be a night I can't sleep. I hate sleepless nights, which makes me hate myself in the mornings. Anyway, I can't think about anything else to write, heres the current song I'm listening to: Take Me Back To Eden by Sleep Token. See ya, guys!