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i don't know what to do anymore i can't keep hurting my feelings like this but i can't just ghost her, i still appreciate her a lot but is it actually worth getting jealous over the smallest thing ever?? it's just so stupid and i feel so stupid i hate her so much her behaviour disgust me how can she do that to her boyfriend i feel so bad for him, it feels so wrong that's why i'm taking my distances with her but i still kinda want her attention and her love so atp it's just weird i just wish i could go back in time and just have never told her that it just feels so awkward i hate her