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Fear of Death
Here to share a thought that is increasingly making its way into my mind... The fear of death, of the concept of death.
Be careful, it's not the fear of dying (I still try to live my existence more or less fully), what terrifies and distresses me is the idea of the After (What is there? What will become of me and my lived experiences? What is the point of life as a whole?).
Every imaginable prospect terrifies me: Is there nothingness? HELP, what does nothingness mean? I have no grasp of nothingness, it is impossible to conceive of Nothingness now, while alive; Is there an afterlife, eternal life? HELP, to live infinitely? To have no end, just to be. Terror.
I believe this is a common thought for all human beings, but the fact that periodically there is this bell that must remind me of the fleetingness of life and immerse me in an infinite series of reflections on what comes next, I find it annoying at the very least :D
Stopping and reasoning about Reality as a whole has always fascinated me, and it still does, but the older I get, the more these thoughts leave behind an immense anguish and sense of powerlessness within me. How does one cope?
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peregrine
Hi there!
Funny to be thinking about death first thing on a Sunday morning, heh.
I guess if death, like consciousness, has its roots in a metaphysical realm rather than just being a sum of bodily impulses, then maybe we can hope for an experience just as broad and intense, even without a physical body.
I mean, how do trees feel? How do stones resonate with the low hum of the universe, existing for millennia only to dissolve into dust and give life to something else, right? it’s just a different dimension of experience.
The idea that the universe is a body, living, functioning all at once, makes me feel like my death is just a transformation within that body, into something new.
But then again, maybe that’s more of a Buddhist thing like letting go of the Ego and embracing unity by overcoming samsara and reaching nirvana
I think an answer to your question would be the same as to why there so many religions and beliefs. Because most of them just a teachings about living, dying and the afterlife.
And you are free to choose your own beliefs if it would help you to understand death better and accept its presence in your life.
hope you have a great day 🫡✨
Thanks for the reply! And yeah, Sunday morning is perfect for these kind of thoughts. I totally get wat u're saying tho, and i see the value in it. What kinda stops me (maybe im cynical?) is that personally, any answer i give myself now, while I'm alive, I'd just see as a quick fix to avoid really thinking bout the 'problem.' But yeah, maybe i shld try and dig a bit deeper into what you mean instead of just skimmin the surface. :D
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hahhh well skimming through is also good if u enjoy it. i just hope that ✨existential dread✨ won’t stop u from feeling the beauty of simple everyday things
cos i mean… thinking of death is fun because it’s such a complex topic, and it can be free from negativity if u consider it something akin to transformation or shift in consciousness, and not just an infinite blackout 🤷
by peregrine; ; Report
yeah, it won't happen... exisential dread is just my lil' "add-on" :D, i take it everywhere, but it doesent take control
by dddmr; ; Report
oh then it’s actually an entertaining companion to have c:
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