Entry #101

life hasnt been so bad suprisingly. well after i make this ill probably jinx it and ruin something, but until then ill enjoy the moment. been very happy getting back into persona, been getting specifically into persona 4 more. i just ordered a narukami figure today, super excited for it to come. i ordered christmas presents for my best friend, but i dont have much money so ill have to get him more presents after holidays when i get cash. been searching for some jobs to do, nothing really appealing or something i can do. i am utterly useless in every category. might try out apps for babysitting or pet sitting. grandparents are deteriorating so im probably gonna have a job taking care of them then soon, which is okay i guess. itd be a start. trying to look for online jobs but none really that i can do. dad is bugging me to get my drivers permit and license, which i really dont want to but i guess itll make me feel better if i go get at least my permit. itd be humiliating if i failed the written test, but i doubt i will. i cleaned my room all day, i feel much better. washed my face, hands, brushed my teeth, i even flossed today. though my upper right molars are abscessed. im supposed to get antibiotics but my grandparents fucked up where they send my medicine so now they send it to cvs instead, and cvs doesnt take my insurance. so my dad has to fix it and have it be sent to walgreens instead. until then, my teeth will have to suffer without amoxicillin. i think i have an appointment the 20th something, cant remember. removed my hades, persephone, and hekate altars. not that i dont like them, but i dont really have that connection with them at the moment. i am also running out of space. for all my stuff. i kind of quit my witchcraft stuff at the moment. not completely, but i put away all my special stuff. but ill still participate in the practice, just not as heavily as before. again, running out of space for stuff. my friend just stopped being friends with our friend group which sucks, now all of our gcs and servers are dead. at least the ones im in are. my friends kind of been ignoring me, talking to each other instead. kinda sucks but at least my irl is talking to me. typing all of this has already ruined my mood slightly. though its okay. im having memory problems. theyre getting worse. its worrying me a bit. i cant remember what i wrote in my last blog, but i was going to ask for maybe a switch 2 for christmas. though as expected theyre still really expensive. itll be okay though, if my dad cant get it ill probably ask for it on my birthday or next christmas. i was gonna ask for the new hyrule warriors that came out, but you cant even play as link in the game and link is literally the only one i play as 98% of the time. and even then it just focuses mainly on the zonai people which i literally do not give a fuck about, tears of the kingdom was kind of a let down for me. the mechanics are annoying to me, half the shit i cant even understand and i cant even tell what im supposed to be doing a majority of the time. i feel as though tears of the kingdom was specifically made for people who are like pros and speedrunners rather than people who actually want to play the game. breath of the wild was utterly perfection as someone who grew up on zelda games, and i was so hyped for totk to come out only to spend like 70 bucks on nothing. the story isnt even fun to me honestly. i dont know, its probably just because im a link dickrider. i wish there was more to link in totk and wish he was literally in the new hyrule warriors and not just an npc, why would they not include the main character in the newest game? its so fucking retarded to me i cant take it anymore. i wish they just actually made a new zelda game rather than growing the plot off of botw, and then making totk not even canon to botw timeline, and then the entire botw timeline doesnt even connect to the zelda timeline at all. what? anyway, thats about it i think. i cant remember if i was going to say anything else, but if i was i guess it doesnt matter enough to remember. tomorrow is another day.