on saying goodbye

dear Qualifier, it's been awhile
i feel like writing letters is going out of style
i'm reflecting on the times that we've shared
every inch you gave me, i wanted a mile

you used to make me smile, but i've made myself sad
i'm not angry or frustrated or mad
i'm just disappointed and feeling kind of bad
i didn't expect our friendship to be a fad

but it was, it was something i had to grow away from
i've stopped believing in forever, now there's only day one
one day at a time, that's how it's gotta be
because anything else requires too much of me

i know i owe you an amends
i thought that with time that meant we could be friends
but if this was graphed out, looking at the trends
my emotional market is crashing, this is where it ends

sorry if i offend, that isn't my intention
i had to put all of my beliefs in suspension
it was fantasy, riddled with obsession
when it came to a head, it became depression

i'm still stressing, thought that i'd feel better
all of this pressure, emotional stormy weather
thought that i'd be better and in same ways i am
lately i'm just doing everything that i can

it's not always about what i want to do
if i had it my way, i'd never have wanted you
but i can't control or change the past
so it's just a recognition that this ultimately couldn't last

anyways, i'm rambling now
at this point, can't do a damn thing now
all i gotta do is try to survive another day
and know that when i hit a wall, there's another way

through this labyrinth; i'm not really lost
i know if i follow the walls, i'll come across
the exit or the center, or wherever i'm going
i don't know, and there's nothing to be knowing

i'll find whatever's waiting for me there
i'm just at a point where i really can't care
this is the medium by which i choose to share
if i don't get it out of me i'll end up in despair

i'm realizing that i'm taking up a lot of time
and i didn't plan to have this all come out in rhyme
it's just the way it was meant to be
know that whatever the status, you are not my enemy

consider this a blessing, a wisdom tooth removed
it's causing more damage and less likely to be used
so that's it, that's all i have to say
i'm glad for what we had but it's time to walk away