6 months away from home

 I've been gone from home for now 6 months and I feel numb. I miss my family and friends, but I guess me being away from them made me used to not being with them anymore that I felt comfortable being alone for hours at a time during the day, that now having to call my family feels awkward and unnatural if that makes sense. 

I miss them extremely but I sometimes get annoyed when they call or text me, because the loneliness that I've been used to for these 6 months has been my norm. I know that I sound like a damn edge lord but thats not what I'm trying to come off as, I just feel not connected with the people I become so attached to back at home, that it just feels weird and uncomfortable.