Sunday journal 11/9/25

Hello spacehey I just got out of the shower and watched one of the new smiling friends episodes while warming up. I liked the super monkey ball reference, but I was put off but the flash cuts of mr. boss x alan yaoi while watching, because I am having a psychotic episode so i could not believe my eyes and i thought i was losing my mind and hallucinating mr. boss x alan yaoi subconsciously because I wish my wife could be my boss, I think. So Freudian. To preface, this is not the most sober journal that you will read but I hope that you enjoy it nonetheless.  

Today I had to write for my english class whether AI is valuable in art or not. I really don't feel like I'm qualified to answer this question. I grew up in an age of rapid technological advancements, and I utilized this to the best of my ability by prompting Midjouney to create Cirno flying into Marisa twin towers once when I was 16 on my dad's crusty ancient Samsung phone, and never again. Oh wait, I prompted an AI to generate Miku drinking cough syrup, and check this out, Madoka as TYLER DURDEN drinking cough syrup and smoking a cigarette at the same time! This is the most meaningful art of the 2020's, layered in transgender, schizophrenic, grief--- it isn't just highlighting the differences between you and man, it's spouting SIGNIFICANT verbiage that underscores your plight, and layers over your own personal experience where maybe you can't even recognize it anymore. 

If you squint hard enough, the image really does look like Miku. or blue Meguca, drinking a comically large bottle of Delsym that I have never seen at the dollar store before. She is vomiting a mysterious teal substance that can unmistakably be considered cool while wearing sunglasses and a jacket that (only, just) vaguely belongs in a PutuMayo catalog .If I saw this image in the corner of my eye, I would think it was the TDA Miku Models that were used in like, every MMD animation ever in the 2010s, but regurgitated and mutilated in my peripheral view. Yet, I turn around, focus on each little detail, and delsym miku throwing up The Blue is horrifyingly real. But not enough. The label on the bottle is unreadable; none of the lines are truly connected in this piece, the shapes on Miku's jacket are.... interesting... possibly trying to copy the shape of the soul gem of another pigtailed friend in the process of existing? So, yeah, it's not *really* Miku, but it's close enough that your co-worker or friend would get a kick out of the misshapen silhouette of Miku throwing up suburb signs with a bottle of delsym. Or not. Maybe that's just what a very, very small group of people consider art--- anime girls with burgers, girls, cough syrup, you name it, that is art that a human can spend their time and labor on, contributing to carpal tunnel syndrome that will interfere with their daily life in the future, but hey, my hands are idle. 

It's hard to take in the vibe of AI-generated artwork but I think we can all agree: why would you spend precious moments of your life that you could have used tending to your pets, reflecting, meditating, or learning something new drawing Miku with a comically large bottle of delsym, when artificial intelligence can do it for you? You want it either way. You want to see Miku chugging delsym, and nothing in this capitalist ouroboros will stop you from getting what you want. There is no designation of labor or McDonaldizing that can stop you from lapping the fountain directly at the source. You want to see your anime girls in goofy situations, you crave it. This is your end result.