November 8th 2025: Horrid on all accounts

Today was horrible it was horrible and its all my fault. The girl saw right through my act and knew that i wanted to date her. She then proceeded to block me. Im obviously really sad and disappointed because honestly i was being weird and i shouldn’t have responded to her note. I apologized to her on tiktok because she still hasn’t blocked me there but i doubt it’ll work. I feel like a weirdo. To be honest thinking rationally all i said was (simplification) “wow this is crazy to read this is OC btw” then “you got paired up with someone bad” then she responds 2 days later “yea i hate him” “what was the note” then i said “oh you said this” (no response) “its ok if you dont wanna talk about it” like that is weird to an extent but i dunno if she needed to go that far. This monday is gonna be really horrid

When i was younger i had 4 pets that all lived for 2 years. Each time one of them died i felt this weird feeling of sad disappointment that wasn’t hard enough to cry over but not too little to not feel sad. Now every time a girl rejects me i get that feeling. Its a bad feeling and it makes me feel weird. N if youre somehow reading this im actually really sorry. good bye