brief vent

i'm gonna be honest with you - i don't think anyone likes me that much. i don't think i like myself that much either. and the worst part is; i don't really care.

i spent a lot of time in the past sad that i wasn't appreciated. i had the idea i was this undiscovered treasure and it hurt me that no one saw it that way.

it's different now, i'm a lot more cynical. i'm not much special and it matters a lot less now. i can't say there's anyone'a validation i'm seeking. i don't value anyone that much. 

i'm at a very nihilistic stage i'm not sure i know or necessarily want to get off from. 

i sleep peacefully knowing no one thinks of me - is it wrong?