November 4th 2025: Exam and Social Observations on one self

Today i had an exam it went decent i guess I'm really tired so can't really show you any writing so maybe over the weekend though i might just not do it because I'll have to type it out and I'm really lazy. Ive been watching the Death note and its quite good. I also watched Whiplash last night and it was really good.

In school i have an art class and in that art class i sit in front of 2 girls and im right next to my friend. Idk why but i sometimes find myself trying to make really stupid conversation with my friend just to make them laugh. It's not because i want to pursue them romantically or anything but more so because i want to be accepted. That's something i realized about myself in most settings on which i think that someone is looking at me i try to do something interesting to earn their respect. An example of this is when I'm in class and i think someone is looking at me i open up my mobile emulator and play stuff on it to see if anybody notices. Ive never been quite social as a kid because im an only child so ive dont have many connections that can notice me (or more that the people who i do want to notice dont). I dont know if this is a vent but i guess thats what a diary is for. Good bye!!!