Day 3 of No Nicotine

Mourning the loss of a relationship I've had for years, thinking if I make it through the day tomorrow will be easier, but I want to be with my friend so fucking bad. I keep getting near physical aches of wanting and not having. I set a stopwatch. I started it when I got home yesterday and immediately dug through my room trying to find any last vape or pod. I set the timer because it's like girl... it's been 20 minutes of being home calm down. It's been almost 30 hours since I set that timer. My roommate hasn't been home, so I can't hit his vape. I refuse to buy cigs. It's too telling, too smelly and everyone will know and I told everyone I was done for good. Got my flu shot today so my arm hurts. Got a warning for speeding. oh boy.