I'm just being weird about a fictional character

Usually I find myself attracted to fictional characters much MUCH older than me(19) there was something about those older characters. I focus and emphasize on characters because the thought of someone real getting too close to me in that manner fills me with disgust and dread.

Anyways, Twisted Wonderland, TREY CLOVER , he's done something to me. He's a year younger than me now. Even though I got into twisted wonderland at like what 15? Still I didn't think much of him then and now I REALLY do, and yeah I'm absolutely in love with him now, but usually with characters his age or younger that I become fond of I just pair an oc with them and go about my day. But I'm so down bad for him in particular I want to be with him myself and grow old together and get married and this is so not fair... Don't ask me how this happened... I couldn't tell you, I started looking at him and then I kept looking and thinking about him and now he's living inside my head.