I just ended a friendship. Was debating whether or not to yap about it here, but I need to get it off my chest somewhere because it's a pain to hang onto. This is mainly a little vent post so I won't get into all the details. It was a friend from highschool. We are not in close proximity now, so meeting in person isn't really a thing for us anymore. We used to have watch parties on call and stuff,... » Continue Reading
I sold a character design to someone on Toyhouse. I'm not gonna make a big fuss over it, just wanted to vent here. Just get it out of my system. I made her redesign, I didn't plan to use her old one, it was just annoying how pushy the person who wanted it was. And honestly yeah I was excited to make her new design. Then they started haggling after already being pushing. And just a bunch of other e... » Continue Reading
When someone's being unreasonably nice to me and that part of my brain dubs them a liar or a manipulator. Trying make sure I generally keep my distance still. I consider it my a toxic trait. I just keep it in my mind, that people aren't interested in how I'm doing, just what I'm doing. Man I'm so hungry rn. I'm doing better about not over explaining myself to people cause it doesn't even matter no... » Continue Reading
I hate that person who yapped and ran their filthy mouth about how they were gonna do SOOO much with my design when I first joined toyhouse. I hate that person who didn't even voice their problem with me directly and instead sent multiple people to hang up on me. I hate people on Toyhouse who try to butter me up with compliments, I hate people trying to get buddy buddy with me, I hate people who t... » Continue Reading
I'm not necessarily tired. I had such a wonderful and lovely day yesterday. I just cried recently and it made me want to spiral down some old thoughts and habits. Not gonna. It is truly a displeasure have all these annoying thoughts. I'm in those 'I hate everyone' moods. Makes me wanna stress eat. So I'm yapping here again because I'd rather go six feet under than express all this directly to anot... » Continue Reading
EW EW EW EW. I hate the fleshy urge to contradict a habit I'm trying to change. It's disgusting and aggravating. I tell myself, stop needlessly reaching out to people, stop going to social spaces you don't need to be in because you always drain yourself trying to make a connection you don't care about. I fear I only idolized the idea of a close relation. I'm trying to unlearn my old habits. I want... » Continue Reading