The future

The only way I can describe how I’m feeling is shock. Just complete utter shock.

I’ll be honest, I used to tell myself I wouldn’t make it far. I’d be gone before I reached my senior year of high school. I wouldn’t be around after my junior year. I was always so so so convinced I was too stupid and too incompetent and too much of a bummer to get far.

I just opened an email. And, boom. College acceptance letter. What??? Me?? Accepted into a college? Ten days after I submitted my application?? With a pretty large scholarship?? Oh my god.

It’s so weird suddenly being so locked on having a future suddenly. I’ve been pretty damn miserable for a while, I’ll be honest. I never thought I’d actually like.. become a college student. It’s so strange to think about.

I’m going to college. ME.