Everyday ♡ blog // 31.10.25

I don't want any of it.

There are a lot of instances where I think I want something,, but then I get it,, and like.....

I don't really want it.

Earlier,, was sitting on the bed and folding laundry.

My embroidery thread and stuff like that was out,, so I started mending some of the shirts I had.

The other day I was thinking,, "I kinda wanna buy some new clothes,,"" but then again I also already really like what I have,, and I don't really want that much new stuff right now.

A few years ago I was out with my friends,, that was a while ago. I don't really talk to them anymore. 

We were walking around a small shopping center,, and I was so excited.

But when it actually happened it felt underwhelming and I was disappointed,, felt real awkward.

I dunno if it's the people or if it's me,, but it wasn't as fun as I thought it'd be.

I try not to put my hopes up too high nowadays,, things aren't always what you want them to be in your head.

That flower patch embroidery I was working on was hastily finished this afternoon,,

At a sudden moment I felt that I was rushing and that my work had gotten sloppy.

It all just started to crumble away as soon as I stopped paying attention to it,,

and like a bright light shone to my head in a moment of darkness,,

i cringed at my sudden discomfort.

Where did my mojo go? Where's my line of peace and silence, man?

The flow of it all was disrupted at the abrupt knowing that,,

if I didn't put in my utmost effort,,, it would not turn out as good as I wanted it to.

That's why I try to put effort into the things I care about so much,, at least as much as I am able to.

But then again, I need to half-ass things more or I won't get anything done in the fear of it not being good enough.

There needs to be a balance in life. sometimes your emroidery looks a little bit off and you don't need to complain about it, other times, maybe spend more time on those delicate patterns.

All about knowing when and then ,, yk?

oukay bye nightly night <3 so big heart forrr anyoneeee readingggg

p.s,, quick add on,, I <3 leviathn frrom obey me so excited 4 the game,, practically shrieked at the announcement,, pre-registered ,,ANDDDD i am gonna be soooo broke once the bunny boy figures come out </3333333

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